Getting back on track

12 days feeling like crap now. The last week has mostly been face-ache from the blocked sinus' I think. Saw the dr on Thursday but she couldn't find any sign of infection, it's a virus and nothing can be taken to help. Wednesday night I'd had earache, but it was ok by Thursday. I cried Wednesday night, I was so over feeling like crap. Cried again today because my face still hurt and I'm so over feeling like this. I took twice the painkillers I normally would and ended up going to bed because I just couldn't stay awake. But I was in so much pain, like toothache... having a sore head/face is just the worst I reckon.

Anyway, last night DP made a point of saying how much he's done recently, looking for me to say how wonderful it was no doubt. Well, he had tried earlier in the week, but by the end of this week he'd slacked off again... Monday and Tuesday he actually did quite well, almost managed to keep the kitchen clean... except that we've had ants and he's sprayed them but not cleaned them up. So there are little piles of ants in the corners of the kitchen on the floor... he sprayed again today so it's worse. I was cleaning them up with paper towel and ajax spray and wipe. Bloody ants. Last night I said I'd noticed early in the week that DP was doing the dishes, I said I've been feeling too bloody horrible to say anything. I'm so over feeling like crap and having faceache every morning. At least it's been going away in the afternoon. Today mum came over to help out with the living room. It looks great, we got a new couch! So mum came over to get things looking tidy, and it's great. Back to what it was before I got sick, now I have to stay on top of it. DP sat on the computer all day again though. He had an afternoon nap yesterday and the day before! So tonight he headed to bed at 9.30pm, tomorrow he has a dr appointment. He was supposed to have one when I was sick, he cancelled that. Then he said it was Thursday only he got a call Wednesday because he'd missed it! So now he has one tomorrow. Of course I will have to take him, even though I took myself on Thursday last week... he didn't come along! He just stays home. Then he tells me I need to stay home and rest... would be a hell of a lot easier if he had his damn licence! I have to take DD 5 to kinder for a start! She was so upset about missing a day when I was first sick!

Friday he asked me to transfer $100 to his account so he could go shopping, said he'd catch a taxi... instead he went to bed at about 5pm. God it shit me! He talked like he'd do it, but he wanted me to say "oh I'll drive"... but I was feeling shithouse, the weather was completely crappy, I didn't want to go out... so he went to bed when DD 16 started cooking tea. We ended up going grocery shopping Saturday morning, DD 5 had a birthday party that afternoon so we had to be quick. He sat on the computer until 10am so we didn't get out until after midday!

Besides that, he seems to still be doing his meal replacement shakes though I commented that if he was having 2 a day he'd have gone through them faster... he hasn't run out yet and we've been buying 8 a week. Hmm, we've bought 30 in total and he's been doing it for... 17 days. And he's got 10 left, so that's 20 over 17 days... Plus he's been drinking a lot of Coke, and still has his 2-3 coffees in the morning. And tonight he bought pizza for tea, not sure how much he ate. I'm really concerned that he's not really sticking to the diet very well. Yes, I want him to lose weight. The scales weren't working when we were out yesterday, he wanted to stand on them and see how he's going. Oh well... plenty of time for that I suppose.

Tomorrow is another day, there's a huge pile of dishes but at least they're only today's. DS 13 helped me today, we did many of them. Mum had done some too. DP had DD 16 do some too I think. She was in a foul mood today, had a go at DP for no reason so I yelled at her. Said I'm short tempered thanks to feeling like crap for so long and I'm not putting up with people talking like that. Now I'd better go to bed and hopefully this damn flu will bugger off and I can start feeling normal and functioning like a normal person.