Living with an Agoraphobic WoW Addict

This is my diary, a record of what it's like living with a partner who has
Anxiety Disorder and Social Phobia and how it's affecting us.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Mother's Day weekend

I had a really nice chat with my friend, and she appreciated the food. I came home and DD 16 was cooking tea - cannelloni, it was very yummy! DD 1 fell asleep at 9pm, I went to bed at 11pm. DD 1 was very restless, I put her in bed with me. She cried and soon DP came in and got her. I listened to her screaming for me and DP brought her back and she settled and fell asleep. I slept a little but soon she was crying and restless again. DP got her again and I asked the time, he said it was 1.20am... no wonder I was so tired and feeling angry. I listened to DD 1 crying for me again ("Mummy, I want mummy") and at one point she stopped. I'm sure I stayed awake, I remember hearing her cry again. When DP brought her back in to me he said it was 3am though.

I was up at 7am today with DD 4, DP had gone to the bathroom when she got up so I got out of bed. DP went back to bed. DD 1 came out soon afterward. I did some dishes, put a load of washing on, got the little ones breakfast and sat on DP's computer. DS 13 had been on the laptop from about 7.15-8.15am then DD 16 was on it. I wanted to have a big cleaning day. DP got up at 9.20am and put the kettle on. He told DD 16 to get off the computer. I hate when he does that, he used to say "let mum have that computer", but he didn't today. I still got the feeling he wanted me off his computer. Funny, he has "his" computer and the rest of us "have to" use the laptop. At the moment I'm on DD 16's, she got a scholarship through high school worth $1000 and bought this one. DP's was bought with my account, I still remember how he just wanted to have a look and there was a gamer's machine "too good to pass up". Anyway...

2 loads of washing on the line, another still in the machine... I can hear it beeping away, I must turn it off when I go to bed shortly. A heap of dishes done, but not enough to catch up :( I went to hang out one load and looked at the car in the backyard and remembered someone was coming to pick it up! Asked DP through the door what time the guy was coming, "10.30, what time is it now?" Umm, I'm outside, turn around and look at the clock! It was 10am so DS 13 and I tried to clear the way a bit. DP came outside and helped move some stuff, he went back inside, I finished hanging out the washing then decided to fit as much rubbish in the bin as I could... wasn't much room though, after I found a bag of rubbish that had been dumped, probably because there wasn't room in the bin the day it went out. Argh! Plus there was a box of soft drink cans in the bin that should have been squashed and put in the recycle bin, but no-one will own up to doing it!!! Another ARGH!!! The car got picked up on time and I headed inside ready for morning tea.

DD 1 was tired at 11am, about when I got coffee and cake for me and juice and cake for the little girls. I cuddled her and she went off to sleep. DD 16 got noodles for herself and DD 4, and DS 13 too I think. DP talked about cheese toasties but was on the computer so we didn't have that. I think I skipped lunch. The kids had tidied the living room too, while the car was getting picked up. They're so helpful. I didn't do much from lunch onward, started chopping up chicken pieces (that's how I missed lunch) I did 4 chicken breasts then DP came and finished the last 2. He cooked half up with sweet and sour sauce to take to mum's for tea. He put the other half on afterward so I guessed he wasn't coming with us. He usually doesn't. This time he isn't feeling well, the antibiotics are making him feel knocked around (as they usually do) and he's still got his cough. So I took the kids. Came home and he said he'd napped a bit, and his brother has a new baby boy born today. He got a message and a phone call. We got home before 8pm, I sat on the computer, I'm so tired. I put the kettle on and thought DP was getting DD 4 a milo, but I ended up getting it and DD 1's bottle. DP took the little girls to brush their teeth, a rare occurence! I realised it was 8.45pm and Frost started at 8.30pm so I watched that. Now I've been on Facebook and thought I need to keep my 'diary'. DP said he and his 'team' 'guild' whatever have made it into the qualifier for the WoW competition. Hope he gets something out of it, better than playing the damn game all the time for "nothing".

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