Exhausted

So it's been a week since I was here. The computer I was using has started to die, the fan is going. Last week I was hardly online at all, including Facebook! Mainly because DD 16 takes her computer to school so I could only get online when DP was off his computer. That was Facebook time, while he was in the bathroom. At one point last week I commented that it would be harsh if he had to share his computer! He just said "yes it would" and that was it.

What has my week been like? Well, today DD 4 had a birthday party to attend and DD 16 went to her boyfriend's house because they've been "going out" for a year now. I went to mum's while the party was on and DD 16 met us there. As I left this afternoon I said to DP that I would like him to do some dishes, "cooking tea is not your only chore, there are other things that need to be done" I said. He's still not 100% these days, but I don't think I remember a time where he has gone very long without being "ill". Anyway I was out from 12.30-3pm and he has done some dishes. He also says he will get off the computer "soon" and move the living room around because I put the clothes airer in front of his seat and he can't watch TV. It's not been an issue for long but will be for the rest of the winter depending how often he decides he will sit with the rest of us instead of being on the computer. The heater is between DP's seat and the TV and I put the clothes near it to dry. DD 1 is asleep at the moment, I want to do some craft but will update here first.

Why am I exhausted? As I drove to the party today I was feeling both emotionally and physically drained. I've been sleeping in lately, not good really. I have to go to bed before 11pm to get up at a reasonable time (to me) Yesterday DP headed to bed at about 9pm, well before the children went to bed - they wanted to watch Toy Story 1 and 2 on TV. He was getting pains that he described as feeling like he'd accidentally eaten a glass bottle. He reckons he doesn't want to eat bread or have cereal as it was his initial feeling that he'd had too much fibre. I don't know if that's even possible. Besides which we only have white bread, certainly not much fibre in that LOL He had that same pain earlier, not sure if I managed to post about that here. Maybe it was last weekend. DS 13 had stomach pains Tuesday so had the day off school. DP has an appointment tomorrow with the nurse/doctor... he needs to get another assessment to get another referral to the counsellor.

Maybe I will backtrack to last weekend. We went shopping, we often do on weekends though I am trying to stop that habit - I'd prefer to go on Monday when the kids are at school, then we can spend the weekend doing some cleaning up around the house. Gives the kids time at home to do their rooms too. So DP decided to buy some walking poles. My fault, I saw them marked down to $20 and pointed them out. He also bought exercise gloves and a skipping rope, and a single wrist weight that was on the clearance rack. The latter 2 are still sitting in their bag here on my chair. The poles he took out and was playing with when he realised one wouldn't fit together properly so had to go back. We spent heaps of money that day. I think it was Saturday. He wanted to go out again Sunday but I wanted to spend time at home. He'd talked about going himself but then didn't. I think I took the kids to visit mum.

Monday we stayed home until I had to do the sports run. Tuesday was craft and visit Nanna day. Wednesday was another day at home but DP had done some work on Tuesday and had to pick up his payment for that. We headed in to town when DS 13 got home, we'd sent a message to DD 16 via her boyfriend because DP had her phone but she didn't get it. We came home and picked her up then went out to return DP's walking poles. I was going out there again on Thursday but oh well. DD 16 lost her phone for talking back to DP. I did have a conversation with him about how he needs to warn her then back off and let her cool down. What tends to happen is "Stop talking to me like that or I'll take your phone"... "Give me your phone". Then he wonders why she's constantly angry. They are as bad as each other, honestly. I suggested getting counselling - or some help with how to deal with teens. Perhaps some help for all of us as a family. DP doesn't think we need it.

Thursday I was out until 12.30pm, Friday I took the little girls to an indoor play centre with our playgroup. That was great fun actually. So it's been a 'normal' week for me. The days I've been home I've been trying to sort out the kitchen and living room. I've wanted to vaccum since Wednesday but it's still not done. It's like I get things sorted a bit then suddenly the room explodes. And the dishes! Mum came over on Thursday and did them for us! You couldn't tell by Saturday (yesterday) Yesterday was another day at home, I didn't feel like I did much though. I was doing the dishes and almost caught up. DP and DS 13 went to the cinema - they caught a taxi there and then DP rang me when it was finished and asked if I could pick them up. There are roadworks on the way there, I was fuming by the time I picked them up. I told DP I would like it if next time he is more "self sufficient"... they were going to go shopping only DP needed to use the bathroom and was desperate to get home.

It's 4.50pm and DP has just gotten up to start tea... I will get off here, not ready for him to know this exists LOL